Expectations

Never fear, blog world! I have not forgotten about my inaugural Bachelorette blog. I have just been distracted.

Work has been going well. I have found a new ally in our intern, Von. Our days involve me explaining how to do tasks and why they are done that way, and answering his questions, and then talking about Big Bang Theory. Von is awesome.

Have you ever watched an infant that refuses to crawl, but keeps trying to run? They can pretend they have some sense of equilibrium for brief periods of time. Maybe they can even make you believe that they are in control of their balance. That they can really run. Until they try to move and everything comes crashing down.

Sometimes grownups are like that too.

They can appear to have it all together. They can put on a great show. But if you don't crawl first, you can't run. If you try to run, everything you've worked for will come crashing down in an instant. It's incredibly frustrating to watch. But, it's because we allow ourselves to believe the charade. Our expectations are that it will be true. When those expectations fall short, it can seem heartbreaking. This explains how I'm feeling.