2018

2017 was a whirlwind. A literal whirlwind in every sense of the word.

I ended 2016 and rang in 2017 with my love.
We got engaged. Three days later, my grandmother died.
My relationships with my extended family changed - not my choice.

I left my job of 10 years.
I left my home state.
I moved to a place where I knew few.

We got married and moved in together.
We went on a two week vacation together.

I submitted resumes and applications.
I interviewed for a new job, which I was offered and accepted.



2017 was wonderful and horrible.
I'm thankful for my new husband and my new town.
I'm grieving the loss of my grandmother and the family bonds that are gone.
I'm missing my friends and deep connection.
I miss knowing and being known.

And sometimes you make great decisions that turn out to be terrible decisions.
Not related to my marriage or my move or my job.
But still, terrible decisions that make you doubt.

Doubt your worth.
Doubt your thoughts.
Doubt your perceived value to others.

I pray God will help me be steadfast this year as I face trials and grow.